"I swear I won't leave the next assessment till the last minute". Every year, every single assignment.. always the same words. I'm now 25 years of age, and I have been in some form of school based education since I was 2 years old.. yes you read right, 2.
Having been born and raised in the UAE up until I was 5, and having parents who were both full time professionals, I was basically thrown into schooling when I was 2 (and I'm not talking 'kindy' or 'pre-primary', it was the real deal). I was writing in perfect cursive by 4 years of age. There was no such thing as a pen license in the UAE, if you didn't learn coordination and style, that cane would be coming for you at super light speed... believe.
In 1990, my parents relocated to Australia for work purposes, and to give 'us' kids better opportunities (through better education). This is around the time, I started getting slack, possibly due to the fact I was losing the fear I once had for teachers - "what, they don't cane us here!?". I started to lose the discipline I once had as a diligent student. Don't get me wrong, I got through it all, and have done quite well thus far. But I had to, there was no choice.. my folks struggled to get here, in order to give my brother and I an easier life. I can't let them down, and I can't let myself down either.
Regardless of this, why do I constantly leave assignments till the last minute. This is now my seventh year at Uni, and it has certainly been one of the toughest years in the 23 years of my schooling. To be honest, I feel like I'm definitely burning out. I finish the year in 20 days, and then I only have one year to go. But man, these assignments/thesis are killing me. The work itself, isn't actually that difficult.. but it's just my focus and motivation that's lacking. I feel like I'm taking twice as long to get assessments completed.. assessments with the same level of difficulty I could complete in half the time 2 years ago...
One more year, one more year. Like everything in life.. I just got to grind it out. I will be stronger for getting this completed.
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